Small Un Fill

Well the Dr wasn't concerned...have lost 1 kg on their scales and he gave me a small infiil of 0.25ml.  I feel a little better already.

Just in case it has been stress from everything happening here, I am going to keep my appt for next week... just in case!!!!  I don't want to be able to eat too much for the next 5 weeks.  I got a lecture on eating better but I think the tightness has led me towrds not the best choices.

Any ideas why after 7 weeks it became an issue???

Hubby home tonight!!!!

Thanks for all your support

Got an appointment...***Edited****Read after signature Ta****

I sent the clinic an email and  they want me to come in tomorrow.  I think I need a little bit out maybe just .1ml but I am so scared too....I have always had restriction but what if I can eat a bucket load again???

Also I have tests and assessments at college tomorrow but this is the only time I can go as Wayne is coming home tomorrow night and Ican't leave the kids with my mum for too long because she is really not well....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok...Band Groupie just left a meesage saying to google globus sensation...I did and these are my symptoms....so here are some questions...please ehlp I am freaking out!!!

• Does anone know what causes it?

• Do you think I am too tight?

• Can you hear everything you eat or drink loudly going down??? (I mean people in a lift even have commented on it???)

• It sounds like reflux....what does that mean?

• Do you think it will lead to problems with the band further down the track???

Thank you I am so freaked out right now....

Advice Needed....**Edited x 2**

Thanks to everyone for all your wonderful words of congratulations and encouragement.  I really needed it and it felt great....Thanks.  You guys rock!!!

Ok...I need advice.  Help.  Ideas.  You get the gist.....

The last 2 1/2 days I have been super  tight again and after just Pbing my 1/2 cup of soup (chunky with vegies) now I am a little concerned.  I am having no pain but definately discomfort after eating...you know it just feels like it is sitting there....

Here is what I have eaten:

Sunday:
cup of tea...this gurgles down very noisily
1 egg with milk and cheese (stuck and then pbed up some of another cup of tea)
1/2 cup of soup
2 rice crackers with cheese for dinner
then I had heaps of wine and 1 packet (about 250gm) of rice cake things - I was up till 2am doing an assignment)

Monday:
cup of tea x a few
around 11.30 had some miso soup but very slowly
12.45 full milk cappacino which toook ages to drink
3 pm 1 mini protein bar, 2 cups of cup a soup & rice and cracker (3 pk)
7 pm 2 dim sims (like a big dumpling but about 1/2 the size of an ipod touch or iphone) was very uncomfortable after this
More wine...why is wine no worries????

Today
cup of tea
1/2 cup of milk with protein powder mixed in
1/2 cup of soup...pbed 1/2 and now very uncomfortable

I do usually eat better than this by the way.

I am getting parnoid about what is going on...thinking bad stuff...could I just be tight???  I am not due for my (.) till next Tuesday (Tues today) so I don't think that is it because I usually get very hungry before it then it gets tight during.)

I also have a feeling of something at the base of my throat...weird hey...almost like a sore throat but not quite...although I have been a little winter cold like without full on symptoms this week????  Any ideas are most welcome....

By the way ...have anyone's menstrual cycles changed???  Mine were spot on regular and then last month it came 5 days earlier and towards the end sort of hung on a little...nothing bad and then I got the symptoms...AFTER my (.)...like sore boobs and a heavy feeling.  However my band was spot on with the  actual (.)

Ok enough of that for my 3 male followers who I sincerely apologise for traumatising with my last comparison photos in my undies....didn't think of it until I got a comment from them.  Wonder what DH would say if he knew those were on the net...not as bad as Band Babe showing her 'china'...LOL ...not that you can see it though

Thanks for any advice you have....I want to avoid my Dr as it is a 2.5 hr round trip and with the kids sick, assignments due (yes started the other one) and tests to study for I don't really have the time.

** Work in Progress asked if I though the strange feeling in my throat could be reflux????
I would have said no going on my other experiences of reflux it sort of more feel 'stuck' at the base of my throat where the collar bones come from but on the inside....if that makes sense.  My reflux in the past has always been a burning feeling lower down in my chest.  I suppose it could be???  What does reflux with a band feel like????  Hot drinks go down easier than cold...except the wine of course!!!
Great question.....thanks

****Ok...it feels like heartburn now....what does that mean...freaking out here...I love my band!!!!

Six Months ago.....

...I got my band. Yes on the 14th December and in that time I have lost 24 kg (52.8 lbs). 

I am pretty thrilled with those results ...even though I haven't seen much movement in the last few weeks.  I now feel normal when I am out.  I get to wear nice clothes.  I feel lighter.  I have more energy.  I like myself.

What do I miss????

Eating pizza, not gurgling when I eat and drink, a big bowl of veggies and fruit.....not too bad hey???  Not deal breakers are they????

Even though I have had a really tough week...(.I finally finished my assignment ...57 pages and another 1 to go and then 2 tests....and the kids are still sick)....I feel ok in myself.  I have been eating pretty poorly and have pretty much been bouncing from my lowest  up a kg.  Not too bad...it could have been so much worse considering the things I have been eating...grain waves, magnum's, dim sims, potato gems.....comfort food for the kids.  Oh and me.  But where as before I would eat heaps....all I can manage is 1 dim sim and four potato gems...not bad hey???

The Day of Surgery 14th Dec 2009

Today 14th June 2010

My band has been super wierd yesterday and today.....I can hardly eat.  I got stuck today on tablets and water!!!  I could barely have miso soup or coffee.  I finally ate about 2.30pm...I regular bite of sushi (nori on the inside so much moister)  my bites were about 4 to equal a normal bite.  Then when we got home 2 cups of soup, a mini protein bar and tiny cheese & crackers.  I was feeling a little ill ...sort of weak???

So I am tired and not very inspirational at the moments but thought I would post some of my fav snacks that I can carry in my bag or make up in a dash.....(not Cara!!!!  LOL)

3 rice crackers and cheese...easy for the handbag or lunch!!

A great nutritious snack

Bega Cheese Stringers...they go down easy

Well Naturally...mini protein bars...about 10gms of protein

I hate this protein shake but mix it with vanilla and coffee and have it on my work days or if hungry in the morning....about 30 gm of protein

Fava Nuts...great for a snack in the handbag

Tuna and cup of soups...nice for flavour.

I really need to concentrate on my protein as I don't feel excellent this week with the bad eating. 

I am so glad I got this done.....it has changed my life for the better.....

Me today....I am wearing a dress, leggings, boots and a long cardigan.  I am having a fat day which is so funny when you look at my old fat days!!!!  When I come to Chicago I want someone to take a nice shot of me.....I hate every shot of me.  LOL

Talk soon,

Flowers...

he sent us all flowers.  Gosh he is gorgeous....the girls got flowers and a card hoping they felt better soon.  Me...Love you always...Me :)

I  miss him

Feelings....

I am crap at them.   As a child I was told not to show them...you know always put on a good face.  So even when I want to tell you guys what you mean to me and what I felt as a child...I don't say it well.  So many of you do......

Take Drazil's post Hide and Seek well I am just sitting here crying for the little girl that was ignored by her father, ridiculed by her peers and not allowed to drive because she might get murdered??? (WTF???) and her line when she says about someone holding her hand just made me cry.

I do not cry often or in front of people except my family.  I hold my feelings in check.  I YELL....I do that well.  I just had a fight with my husband who is in Amsterdam because I have to be strong...I don't feel it....the kids are sick, I am average and I have a massive assignment and he just doesn't get it.  I don't want to fight with him....I MISS him.  He did the same thing the day he left.  I want to pass my studies and put up with his 3 years on Uni and I am hurt.  I am hurt that he can't just talk to me without telling me to talk softer, without yawning, without really listening...and I close up to protect myself.

So, I am crying for all of us....for the people who hurt us as children, for the people who saw things kids should never see, for the love and acceptance we didn't get and so on....for Draz, and Lara, and Roo and Jenny and Inspiration and Zara and Joey and Jenny and .....where does it stop.  We can change it for our kids...that has to be our legacy...doesn't it????  (Sorry if I have left someone off the list...I am crying too much)

And I am crying for my mum....and a good cry feels good doesn't it.

You are all amazing

Bouncing...

Yep....I see my new low and then it dissappears again....this morning I was 2 kg (4.4 lbs) up for no good reason except that I maybe needed to do a big poo ...but come on a 2 kg poo????  Is it even possible????  Have you ever weighed one????

Frustrating.......but then I have had pretty good weight loss so why should I complain....except that I am with Draz and am over my muffin top...sure it is smaller than it was but it is still there...where....well you know ...THERE!!!!....above my waist line.

And we have this advertisement here in Australia about how a larger waist measurement can put stress on your body and lead to heart disease, type 2 diabetes, obesity etc...the Measure Up campaign suggests that a waist measurement of over 80 cm (31 1/2 ") puts you at risk and 88cm (34 1/2 ") puts you at an increased risk...this is for females.  Well after losing over 52 lbs my waist meaurement is 99 cm or (39 ")...sure I am down  20 cm (8") (and I so wish I had of taken a measurement of my area between the boobies and waist....) but 80 cm...I am still off by 20 cm to be at no risk for those diseases....weird hey???

I still have good restriction and need to vlog my gurgling because whenever I eat or drink...you can so hear it that it is embarrassing and people comment or think I have burped.  One person said to me 'better in than out'...the shame.  I can eat more than a few weeks ago but I am not eating bad...maybe I am stabilising???  Excersise has been hard due to DH travelling, rain, studying and assignments and today both my kids are really sick.

Talk about feeling about as big as a freckle.....whilst in Melbourne with my mum my youngest cried herself to sleep missing both her parents and then my eldest was sick yesterday but didn't tell anyone because both her parents were away.  I felt so bad....I was sick yesterday from who knows what but had awful motion sickness on the drive to the airport and was looking for the barf bag on the flight home...very bumpy and then all the way home in the car I had my head hanging out the window like a dog.  Made myself throw up when we got to mum's...but didn't feel great.  ( Besides all this was glad I went as mum was really not well yesterday and I could look after her...so depressing that she still has 6 months of this!!!...she looks so unwell already)

Couldn't go to sleep last night...who put the ice cubes in the bed????....it was so cold!!!  Finally drifted off at around 11.30 pm only to wake up at 3.30 am and not be able to go back to sleep....Emma was in bed with me she was on fire with a temperature.  Then Kate woke up and was crying because she wanted to throw up....so that has been our day.

Anyway...as I read all your blogs I get so excited about Chicago...it will be a blast.  WORD!!!

Hope you are all having a good day and are over the F Day....mine was yesterday!!!

Oh and how is this for a photo....my sister sent it me to put on my mum's digital photo frame (WTF??? ) that we gave her for Mothers Day.  It is of her holding her friends baby...I am not sure why mum would want that....but anyway...look who is behind her????  Yep ...me...with my quadruple chins and looking very stunning....NOT.  This was taken the day after my surgery when I went to my kid's end of year concert.  I look zonked out plus was in the boot and on crutches....gosh I have come a long way....

Ok  Bye.....